In spite of everything, the world will keep hurtling forward at 2000 mph. Most of you won't feel a thing but if you pause and sit very still, you might feel a slight breeze.
-This last month two couples I know broke up. I am friends with all of the people involved which makes things feel a little weird and delicate, like treading over eggshells in stiletto heels or participating in a tug of war and I'm the rope.
Both breakups have a similar synopsis: The guy kept going off and on and finally, with a rusty relationship cleaver, severed everything leaving his previous girlfriend practically broken, an emotional mess. I don't see either girl being single for long since their both young and beautiful, the sort of beautiful that will get asked out every weekend for the rest of her life. In spite of this, both are stuck on their ex and the lingering emotions is where things get tricky.
In the first couple, the girl has been really depressed. She has dropped by a fair number of times and I've fed her ice cream, given her pep talks, basically been an emotional support for her. She feels like she can depend on me which I find interesting since at different moments during their relationship, my spidey sense convinced me she was jealous I was so close to her ex. He is my co-chair so we work a lot together. He's a really good guy and we do work really well together but I've always encouraged their relationship if anything and he hasn't ever acted interested in me in that sort of way. In some ways it feels like each is now hoping to show the other that I favor their position in the break up... Hopefully that isn't true. I'm friends with both of them and I don't want
In the second couple, I still remember the girl coming into my kitchen to tell me I was the second person to know she was engaged. Part of my gut was wary of the situation since he didn't seem to be where he needed to be emotionally for things to work, but I liked them together and hoped for the best. Now things have fallen apart. The guy is my old home teacher and a really good friend and last night I rode home from Bishop rick FHE with him on his motorcycle. At one point I remembered an entirely different conversation where my roommate said we'd be good together if he wasn't engaged. I can think of a few solid reasons why things won't happen in that realm but I sort of wonder how his ex will see things that way. Hopefully she won't forget that I've always was supportive... I encouraged my roommate to invite her apartment over for dinner.
-On Friday I bought the coolest shoes in existence. They light up in a way that looks like I'm about to go into turbo speed. You may think I'm a little ridiculous but I assure you, the seven year old in my heart is VERY happy right now.
-I went to the Carl Bloch exhibit yesterday. I made a friend (who liked my shoes) and enjoyed just discussing each of the different paintings. I'm no artist, but I do get paid to look at images (slides in particular), and pick apart all the details in order to make sense of everything. She asked if I was studying art history which made me laugh. I think I would have had fun with a field like that but I'm content wondering what each person is thinking, why the children look you in the face, why that healthy looking woman is carrying water at the pool inhabited by the ill and infirm, why that man is eating a melon, etc.
-Life is good. Have you ever taken a good long moment to really let that thought sink in. I feel like so often I get caught up in things that I don't take enough time to let that idea sink in. For example, I'm communicating with you using a pile of plastic and wires which will send all of this into a box which will send it to your pile of plastic and wires and put it into pictures and words again. I don't have to pay a cent to post this and the cost of internet is something I pay off in less than half an hour at work and lasts the entire month.
-I'm going to eat ice cream now. Its one of my favorite flavors called "Everything but the..." I sometimes feel like I get into that sort of mental rut. I say i have "Everything but the..." man I'm supposed to marry, direction of where I want to go with my life, time to catch up on sleep, etc. May we all do better to avoid the "Everything but the" unless its chocolate and vanilla icecream with white chocolate, fudge, reeses cups, heath bar, and chocolate covered nuts.
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