Here's the list for this year. I don't know how successful I'll be with all of these but they say if you shoot for the moon and miss you'll be among the star... swirling in a vacuum forever... Anyways, here are my goals. Most of these are straight from my bucket list but there'll be some revisions as things go on.
1. One dessert portion per day. I like to graze on treats. This is no longer going to be acceptable behavior. Its not that I need to lose weight or anything but I think I'll feel better in general if I don't eat as much sugar.
2. Go to Hawaii. My original game plan fell apart but I'm still determined to find people to go with me so I can complete the following to do list:
Hike a volcano
Go to the Polynesian Cultural Center
Eat fresh grown Hawaiian Pineapple
Go to a legitimate Luau. One with the dancing and the pig in a spit.
Scuba dive. See some reefs or manta rays.
Swim with the dolphins
Attempt surfing.
3. Move out of Provo. I'm pretty sure it'll happen by Sept 2011 but nothing is really set in stone. I could always get conned into matrimony and be stuck here for another year or two...
4. Do 100 push ups in a row.
5. Take a pottery class.
6. Be a temple worker.
Those are the big "must do" items. I'm sure I'll finish plenty of other things but I'm determined that these 6 will happen. Wish me luck!!
Friday, December 31, 2010
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Life Changing Moments
After praying about this for months and months I think I finally got an okay. Nothing is set in stone, I haven't even applied for a job yet (can't until the website is redone in Jan) but the idea feels good and right. I feel like I'm about to burst and I don't want to tell everyone, since things feel so preliminary. I finally decided I'd post things here for my small handful of off and on readers. I don't even know exactly when and how things will happen, but I think I finally got the okay to get out of here. Eighteen, Nineteen, Twenty, ready or not life, here I come!
Monday, December 13, 2010
Messiah and Utah Lake
Last night I played violin in a performance of Handel's Messiah. I had a lot of fun although I was absolutely exhausted afterwards. It wasn't because I hadn't gotten enough sleep mind you (99% of the time, thats the case). I ate lunch at 1pm and they'd told me to expect dinner and they didn't provide so I didn't get dinner until after the show at 7:30pm. People said we did a good job but I feel like I could have done 10 times better if I'd had some food in my system for the final performance.
I've basically decided I need to go to Utah Lake today. Do you have a place you can go to think and where everything becomes clear? One of those places for me is the lake. Its not a particularly impressive spot, the water is murky, the wildlife kind of lacking on a winter day like today. However, I feel like its a place where I'm truly myself. Well, not that I'm not myself other places, but its the sort of place that I can't help but be myself. Its effortless. Its like breathing deep from your belly, full and wide the way a baby does as it sleeps. Its like when your driving home in the car by yourself and you sing out the windows knowing no one will really hear you. You have no fears, no reservations, you just belt out the yearnings you've hidden deep within your soul. Its like sprinting across an empty field and you're completely exposed but there is no one else to see you racing, leaping, sprinting, or tumbling on the cool dewy grass in your bare feet. I hope all of you have a place like that. I hope all of you know what its like to skip rocks across the water, feel the wind whipping through your hair, watch the light dance across the waves as if the stars themselves were caught in the ebbing tide.
I've basically decided I need to go to Utah Lake today. Do you have a place you can go to think and where everything becomes clear? One of those places for me is the lake. Its not a particularly impressive spot, the water is murky, the wildlife kind of lacking on a winter day like today. However, I feel like its a place where I'm truly myself. Well, not that I'm not myself other places, but its the sort of place that I can't help but be myself. Its effortless. Its like breathing deep from your belly, full and wide the way a baby does as it sleeps. Its like when your driving home in the car by yourself and you sing out the windows knowing no one will really hear you. You have no fears, no reservations, you just belt out the yearnings you've hidden deep within your soul. Its like sprinting across an empty field and you're completely exposed but there is no one else to see you racing, leaping, sprinting, or tumbling on the cool dewy grass in your bare feet. I hope all of you have a place like that. I hope all of you know what its like to skip rocks across the water, feel the wind whipping through your hair, watch the light dance across the waves as if the stars themselves were caught in the ebbing tide.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Happiness
Here are a few things that have made me happy this week.
-Decorating for Christmas. I cut out a bunch of paper snowflakes. I found it surprisingly therapeutic and the snowflakes look lovely on our balcony door now.
-Sewing snuggies. Yeah, you already knew I was a little crazy so this shouldn't be a surprise. They're turning out rather nice so hopefully the recipients of my gifts will really enjoy them.
-Finding the last mistletoe in Utah County. You may doubt that mistletoe is REALLY sold out. Just try. Christina and I went to JoAnn Fabrics, Michaels, and Hobby Lobby only to discover they'd been sold out at least a week. The Christmas Tree stand across the street sold us the LAST of their mistletoe.
-Good music. Today when I was cooking I listened to my grooveshark favorites station and it really lifted my spirits. I think I ought to have more of it in my life.
-Annie, Maren and Aaron Dennis' little girl. On the way to book group we played peekaboo and with some blank label stickers I'd been using as a bookmark. She is a rather content, peaceful child with lovely blue eyes and it made me happy when I got her laugh.
-I made Christmas Dinner for my roommates today and it turned out to be a success. I sometimes wonder if I'll be able to fill the boots of someone else mother's cooking but today I proved to myself that I could at least cook my mom's traditional Christmas dinner. The only thing that didn't turn out were the rolls (which were crispy on the bottom) and everyone ate most of them anyways.
-We went to see the Christmas lights in SLC today. I love looking at the all the trees and wondering how many lights are in each one. In our own way, we're all like the each of the little bulbs on a string. Each one glows its own color, some glow brighter than other, but those details don't matter too much. So long as we don't let our light burn out, we contribute to a picture more brilliant and beautiful than we can see from our lonely tree branch.
-Roommates of past and present. I've seen a lot of the previous 55 roommies this weekend and a lot of my current roommates tonight. They always make me see the best in myself and seem to love me in spite of my odd quirks and crazy mannerisms. I would wrestle a bear for them.
-Decorating for Christmas. I cut out a bunch of paper snowflakes. I found it surprisingly therapeutic and the snowflakes look lovely on our balcony door now.
-Sewing snuggies. Yeah, you already knew I was a little crazy so this shouldn't be a surprise. They're turning out rather nice so hopefully the recipients of my gifts will really enjoy them.
-Finding the last mistletoe in Utah County. You may doubt that mistletoe is REALLY sold out. Just try. Christina and I went to JoAnn Fabrics, Michaels, and Hobby Lobby only to discover they'd been sold out at least a week. The Christmas Tree stand across the street sold us the LAST of their mistletoe.
-Good music. Today when I was cooking I listened to my grooveshark favorites station and it really lifted my spirits. I think I ought to have more of it in my life.
-Annie, Maren and Aaron Dennis' little girl. On the way to book group we played peekaboo and with some blank label stickers I'd been using as a bookmark. She is a rather content, peaceful child with lovely blue eyes and it made me happy when I got her laugh.
-I made Christmas Dinner for my roommates today and it turned out to be a success. I sometimes wonder if I'll be able to fill the boots of someone else mother's cooking but today I proved to myself that I could at least cook my mom's traditional Christmas dinner. The only thing that didn't turn out were the rolls (which were crispy on the bottom) and everyone ate most of them anyways.
-We went to see the Christmas lights in SLC today. I love looking at the all the trees and wondering how many lights are in each one. In our own way, we're all like the each of the little bulbs on a string. Each one glows its own color, some glow brighter than other, but those details don't matter too much. So long as we don't let our light burn out, we contribute to a picture more brilliant and beautiful than we can see from our lonely tree branch.
-Roommates of past and present. I've seen a lot of the previous 55 roommies this weekend and a lot of my current roommates tonight. They always make me see the best in myself and seem to love me in spite of my odd quirks and crazy mannerisms. I would wrestle a bear for them.
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