Kumquat! Say that ten times fast

I feel like I've slacked off on this whole blogging thing... Well, theres not better time to seize the day... night, than the present!

Have you tried a Kumquat? If you haven't you ought to, at least once. For starters, they're such a beautiful, vibrant little fruit. Imagine a clementine orange shrunk to the size of a grape and thats basically what it looks like. However, the striking thing about a kumquat is the flavor. You pop one into your mouth and its bitter, acidic, sour, like a lemon. As you chew it a sweet, subtle flavor develops and you almost forget how intense the first bite is. I don't think I'll buy kumquats frequently, especially since they're a little pricey, but they're definitely worth trying at least once. Yummmm...

Mother Bear

Do any of you ever emotionally enter "mother bear" mode. Mother Bear Mode = when you want to literally anhilate everything thats preventing the ones you love from being happy. Its the feeling I get in my gut when I learn that my sister's ex-husband has called her again (despite the restraining order). When I hear about the reasons for a friends broken off engagement. When I hear of unrequitted affections. Of betrayals. Of loneliness. I am perfectly capable of bridling my passions but sometimes I wish I could disregard my better judgment and do something to try to fix these problem.

As of late I've been thinking about why God has some people go through particular trials and not others. I know God has a plan for us. I know that we aren't going to suffer in this life needlessly, especially if we trust in the Lord and follow his commandments. However, my heart still aches because I can't make everything better.... I guess I'll just have to keep watching and waiting and someday everything will make sense.

Talk about Stalking 101

Today my coworker showed me this website called Spokeo.com. Kinda weirded me out. Tried searching Jill Schuler. Apparently I'm a married 40 year old woman with kids still living with my parents in Minnesota. I also have young grandchildren, enjoy coin collecting, baseball, and interior design... One might be inclined to think this information was about my mother, but she has her own profile... If I searched with my e-mail address a different set of information showed up. Apparently most of that information came from this blog which startled me.

I like the idea of keeping this blog public amongst people I already know. Its set up so that the only way you can find it is if you already know where it is. That information is only publicly displayed on facebook with a "friends only" guard. I'm fine with the idea of someone I already know on a whim discovering the blog from facebook, taking a peak, getting a real glimpse of the sort of person I am. Its not like I'm ashamed of anything I've ever said on my blog... There are things relating to my personal life which will never appear on this blog (family issues, certain specifics about my dating life, etc) but I like being fairly open about things. Its kind of therapeutic to throw ideas into the great void of my blog knowing that someone someday might read it and understand the real Jill Schuler.

This still doesn't stop me from being uneasy about my information floating around on this Spokei website. Maybe I'm just paranoid. Its not like half the information was accurate... Still, its the principle of the thing...